So I guess since I have had my complete hysterectomy ( a week ago) i have been feeling more like a woman. I'm excited that I'll actually be able to wear pretty underware, and bathing suits and things like that. I'm looking forward to a shopping trip to go get pretty underware. For 15 years I have not been able to do anything with out carrying pads near me and wearing one. I have had bleeding issues since I started my period. Now, its been a week, and I have spotted 2 times (normal) after this surgery. I know I have 5 weeks left of recovery, but I'm getting more and more excited.
I have decided I am going to turn into a girly girl. I'm going to carry a small purse (first time ever) and I'm going to shave my legs daily! I'm going to live my life! I'm excited that I'll actually be able to feel sexy to myself, and then in turn feel sexy for my husband. YAY!!!!
Ok, the menopause is hitting.....I'm having a hot flash so I'm gonna get off here for now.
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Options
I had made up my mind, I am going to have a complete hysterectomy....I mean I have been bleeding for 4 months. Mom came in and gave me the money for the dr appointment. And we get to the dr's office....no mention of hysterectomy. She is doing tests on me I have been through a thousand times before. However she mentioned 2 different things that no other dr has done/mentioned. She wants to do a test on me to look for endometriosis.....some of the symptoms i have make her think not only do i have PCOS/PCOD but i may have endometriosis. And then she also said she has seen women with high testosterone have better chances of carrying a child. So now again I'm torn......do i want to go through all this and try for kids, or do i just wanna tell the dr that i'm done and want it all removed.
I'm so conflicted. I know that going option 1: removal of everything is going to be a costly price, once and then i'll be done; or option 2: testing, surgeries, and more periods, and fertility treatment is going to cost and cost and cost and then if we have kids, they will cost even more. I have wanted kids since I was one, but I got to the point where I've accepted that I can't have kids.
I know that one thing I need to do is I need to lose weight. However, the lack of funds and the out of control hormones makes it hard. I have talked to dietitians and they aren't any help. I don't like the way I look now. I know I need to lose weight to be healthy. But how do you eat healthy on $100 or less for 2 people for 2 weeks? when you have to buy EVERYTHING needed for that amount. Pads, car needs, gas, paper goods, everything for the house.
My life is constantly waiting on something. Right now I can't work because of the bleeding.....and unless we get more money, things are going to be tight....and I have to wait on dr apointments until either mom and doug help us out or unless i do work the part time job I have once a year.
Right now, I'm dying to craft......I am out of ink for my printer, and need some items for what I do what to do...however, the money is an issue for me. So I want anyone who may read this who has thoughts or ideas on how to craft from what anyone has in their house. I have no original ideas for crafting, but I have a million ideas from things I have seen on the internet and books I own.
I want to make changes in me.....I want to better my life. I want to be healthy. I'm not making new years resolutions, because I never follow through. But this year I want to become a better me!
I'm so conflicted. I know that going option 1: removal of everything is going to be a costly price, once and then i'll be done; or option 2: testing, surgeries, and more periods, and fertility treatment is going to cost and cost and cost and then if we have kids, they will cost even more. I have wanted kids since I was one, but I got to the point where I've accepted that I can't have kids.
I know that one thing I need to do is I need to lose weight. However, the lack of funds and the out of control hormones makes it hard. I have talked to dietitians and they aren't any help. I don't like the way I look now. I know I need to lose weight to be healthy. But how do you eat healthy on $100 or less for 2 people for 2 weeks? when you have to buy EVERYTHING needed for that amount. Pads, car needs, gas, paper goods, everything for the house.
My life is constantly waiting on something. Right now I can't work because of the bleeding.....and unless we get more money, things are going to be tight....and I have to wait on dr apointments until either mom and doug help us out or unless i do work the part time job I have once a year.
Right now, I'm dying to craft......I am out of ink for my printer, and need some items for what I do what to do...however, the money is an issue for me. So I want anyone who may read this who has thoughts or ideas on how to craft from what anyone has in their house. I have no original ideas for crafting, but I have a million ideas from things I have seen on the internet and books I own.
I want to make changes in me.....I want to better my life. I want to be healthy. I'm not making new years resolutions, because I never follow through. But this year I want to become a better me!
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