yay

yay, the nicest lady ever sent me a copy of the pattern i've been looking for!!! yay!!!!! so thats my happiness today on my yukky sick day. as soon as i can get ink, i will print it and make it for me. yay!!!!!!


thank you nice lady! :D

looking for pattern

looking for annie's shoulder sling bag pattern from 1989.

looking for the one on the lower right side. please let me know if you have it.

tumblr

i'm thinking about making the move to tumblr, but not sure yet.....if your there check me out.

http://www.tumblr.com/tumblelog/been-thinking-out-loud

can't think of a name for this...

I have decided that I do not think that young(ish) married couples with out kids do not blog. Every single blog I have come across is parents. I have yet to find an interesting blog that isn't covered in ultrasounds, preggo bellies, kids, and kiddy themed pictures.

Yes, I have nieces and nephews, but my life is not completely consumed by them. There for I don't want to read about nothing but kids. Yes, I am an over grown kid and I like some of the pages, but I want to find creative married people's blogs with out kids. People who are real...people who are broke....people who are imaginative.

Well, I am trying to find ways of being creative spending NO money. However, here is my question....how do you peoples get pallets home?? do you just own HUGE vehicles? I have no clue how to get one home. They will not fit into our happy little crv.

I have found so many great ideas for pallet crafts, I want to try some of them. Also....where in nashville is a good place to go dumpster diving? I loved doing that when I was littler.....we found some great things growing up. Ok, we didn't really dumpster dive....it was more like "hey, look someone is throwing out a GREAT mirror" or something like that on the side of the road or sitting by a dumpster. Any ideas where do you go to "dumpster dive" in nashville???

I really want to figure out how to get people talking back to me on here, and not just talking to myself acting like there is people who read this!! Anyone is welcome to talk to me and give me ideas.

not a mom

I'm not a mother, I can no longer have option to carry a child in me. I have no parts for child bearing. I want to join a group (even craft groups) but they seem to be centered around moms. Well, what about us women who aren't mothers, and don't want to continually be confronted with women talking about their kids or pregnancy issues. Where do you go??

Well, I want to open a line of communications here so we can figure something out. I want to have a group in real life, not just on computers....how ever, i think my best best is to start online. So if you are NOT-A-MOM and want to join a craft group (knitting, crochet, sewing) or just a NOT-A-MOM group, let me know. I also want to make it a little more challenging....I want to do this group where we don't have to spend money.....or don't have to spend much. I don't know about anyone else these days, but I'm broke. Right now my bank account has $4. So if there is anyone else who is wanting to join a group with out worrying about I don't have money so I can't join a group issues, please let me know. I want to get a large group of women (men too I'm not prejudiced) where we can get together and enjoy our crafts with out worry.

minimizing...or wanting to

So hubby and I have been talking for a long time now that we need to get ready to move into smaller house/apartment. I know we won't be able to live in a house my parents own for much longer...and when we have to move, we will not have the break in rent like we've been having.

I have been watching videos and reading blogs and seeing everything that can be done with small spaces. I'm REALLY impressed by what people have and can do with such little places and still feel like they have everything they need. I want to be a minimalist.

i get excited to see what people can do and how spacious it actually seems to live in the little places. I'm going to go through and take pictures of each room and slowly get rid of stuff and show before and after pictures when i actually can start minimizing our stuff and get hubby to help me. He's for it, but he's also not wanting to get rid of stuff we could continue using and doesn't seem to want to get onto getting rid of stuff until we have to.

i however am constantly overwhelmed with stuff and not having places for things and I just want to get rid of everything. i'm in one of my moods maybe where i don't care about stuff its just overwhelming me and all i wanna do is to cry.

it could be because i've stopped taking my hormone....it could be because i'm sitting here with tubs all around me and then hubby is doing tech support with my mother and their smart phones and every few minutes my mom is having to do stuff for my grandparents and my aunt and my step dad. and so he's either getting texts or calls from mom and he's talking while he's doing everything and the tvs going and i just wanna run away and scream while i'm running away.

ugh. blah. i dunno. i'll write again later.....oh wait another thought is coming in....

and its gone, hubby is asking me questions that i have no clue to and i'm no longer able to have thoughts and talk to someone about something else. oh wait, its coming back....or not, he's not listening to me when i say shut up and don't talk for a minute so i can finish what i'm doing. ugh. tears are upon me.

now i'm being mean because i asked him not to talk. i'm so ready to go and hide in the bedroom. i think he's bitchy as well as me because we didn't get any sleep last night. not for any reason other than laying awake not being able to sleep.

here is my thought finally......

no one is buying the crochet bags i've made......i haven't lined them because i don't know how.....so since no one is buying, i'm thinking about asking for people to buy me gift cards for the post office so i can ship them a random bag or item i have made. what's your thoughts on that??? if anyone wants to do that, please let me know and we can work something out.

thanks for reading. sorry hubby for being mean. i love you.

doing....

there is a world that is rotating and moving around me and i feel like i'm just standing still and i don't know how to get into motion with the world. I just am continually over whelmed and ready to cry my eyes out.

i sit and knit or crochet and my butt is ever growing larger. i cry because i'm fat, and do nothing about it. i wine because i have no friends and i don't leave my house to make them. my delima is this, i can't afford gas to leave my house to make friends. I have people that occasionally talk to me on facebook, but i want friends to talk to on the phone or in person.

i don't know how to start motivating myself to move and to get active and to join the world in being a doer and not a wish i was doing...

i have been working on my wips (for you non crafters, Work In Progress's). I have completed 2 yesterday and working on one today. its more bags.....i will be posting pictures soon....well, in the next few days.

i think i may be getting the nerve up to start using the sewing machine my mom left me. i don't know why, but it scares me to think about using it, but at the same time I want to learn to sew more and more every day!

ok, well, i guess my words have run out for the day. thanks for reading.

inbetween

The last 2 weeks has been a lot. I went to florida with my mother to help my brother and his wife finish their move and to visit as well as be there for my eldest nephew's birthday. While we were there we missed my grandfather's 90th birthday. He didn't want a party and doesn't really care who's there. However, my nephew  asked only for Gram (my mom) to be there for his birthday.

One night while we were in florida, my mother, my sister in law and i went out to painting with a twist. While there I was having a hot flash. The lady I was sitting beside heard me make a comment about hot flashes being horrible. She laughed and said you having hot flashes, i don't think so, or something snide like that. I then had to tell her that I had a hysterectomy, and then I get the usual "i'm so sorry"s....I'm so sick of those. I hate the sympathy and the "I'm sorry"s.

I'm at the point in my life where I'm no longer the youngest...but i'm not the oldest either. I'm not an old woman, but I'm in menopause. I no longer have pms. I just am at an in between old and young, and don't know what comes next. I know for "normal" women menopause runs 10 years, but no one writes about menopause after a hysterectomy. How long does it last? How long do the migraines last?

I'm trying to be a good wife and house keeper, but after 2 weeks gone, I'm having the hardest time getting into the groove. I have wasted today making lists of what i need to do....but doing nothing. I'm already nervous just knowing what i need to do. I'm anxious trying to figure where to start. Is this just part of being a woman? or a menopausal woman?

My husband is the most patient, loving, understanding, wonderful man. He took friday off to be with me for 4 days straight. We spent almost all weekend on the couch with our love seat pulled over to the couch so we could put up our feet and veg out. We enjoyed doing nothing we had to do, and just watching tv hubby had dvr'd for us and then playing wii games and just being together. We did go out to a movie (the last harry potter) and dinner (applebee's)...that was our first date night with out a reason. I loved it.

I just don't know where to go, what to do. How do I get motivated? how do i lose weight? how do i make friends? how do i learn about me? how do i find the truth with out learning it with people's spin on it? like the Bible, all the names have been changed....how do I learn the Bible with out the name changes? Do I have to learn another language? How can I make more money? No one wants to buy the bags I've been making. Its too hard to get a job with one car and the car isn't even gonna last long. its getting "old" and ugh. Will life get easier?

I have so much on my mind, but don't wanna ramble on too long on here. I need to just start journaling or something, but i can't write as fast as my mind thinks. I almost can't type that fast anymore either. But i'm trying to get most if not all of what i'm needing to out here. Its not really like anyone is really reading this. If I'm wrong, if you are reading this i'm sorry. I'd love to hear from you if your not me and reading this.

I guess I'll go get started on something somewhere. Thanks for reading if you are....or thanks blogger for being here so I can write and get out all my crap.